“Hello World!”
A notoriously basic and foundational phrase for anyone who’s taken a computer science course. It’s the first program that most folks learn to code. And in my prefrontal cortex– it’s the first thing that came to mind when I sat down to write this blog I’ve been meaning to write for years now.
I guess “Hello World!” just felt so fitting because I haven’t really typed out my personal thoughts for consumption so it feels like I’m learning a new language again. Outside of personal journal entries, I’ve only ever written in academic settings. And nowadays, I mainly write process and project documentation.
I’m a bit nervous having this much space on the web. I feel so vulnerable: What preconceived notions am I validating in people’s heads? Or worse, what if my 7th grade English teacher sees this and notices that my grammar has gone downhill?
I cannot explain to you how painful it is for me to sit here and backspace the last 3 5 10 words I wrote because the voice at the back of my head found a new way to interpret my words as cringey. In my head, I’m fighting a pesky middle schooler who was more concerned about what other people thought about her than she did about herself.
Well thankfully, I’m not her anymore (most of the time, at least). I’ve always used writing as a means to an end— writing was always something functional to me. And I’m realizing that it’s very constipating to use words so sharply and rigid. I’m definitely not the most creative person around but I’d say I’m creative (or at least funny and charming). I’m still unlearning and don’t plan on backing down. Cheers to making it this far down my post! Godspeed if you’re going to be following along for more.
Trusting the process always,
