“Hello World!” — the first print() that folks output when they learn how to code in a new language (or printf() if they really wanted clang their brains). Anyway, for me, “hello world” is the first thing I’m choosing to write as I find my creative voice again (though, I’m not sure I’ve ever uncovered it). Outside of personal journal entries and computer code, I’ve only ever written in academic settings. And nowadays, I mainly write process and project documentation. It feels like I’m learning a new language again.
A part of me is reeling in discomfort— I feel so vulnerable. What if my 7th grade English teacher sees this and notices that my grammar has gone downhill?
I cannot explain to you how painful it is for me to sit here and backspace the last 3 5 10 words I wrote because the voice in the back of my head found a new way to cringe at this sentence. In my head, I’m fighting a pesky middle schooler who was more concerned about what other people thought about her than she did about herself.
I’ve always used writing as a means to an end— writing was always something functional to me. But, I’m realizing that it’s very constipating and tiring to only use words so sharply and rigid. So, here’s to finding creativity;
Warmly trusting the process (I think),
